In our special globe walk tradition for Davy's fifth birthday, he counted very carefully how many times around the "sun" he went and wanted a story or anecdote from each year that he's been alive.
He is extremely pleased to be a whole hand old.
Davy celebrated on Monday with friends. His best buddy, Calvin, was born two days before in the same hospital (I got to hold baby Cal when I was laboring with Davy and didn't feel a single contraction the whole time I was holding him, so excited about the prospect of a real baby I was). Those boys get along really well, and Cal's family is just the coolest family in the world.
They set up their huge tent in the living room so we could have story time, camp songs, and sleeping bag "rests" in between doing a bear hunt, making pretzel fires, and eating s'mores.
Blowing out candles in marshmallows was the highlight of the party. Right up there after a peppermint pattie s'more.
For the family celebration Davy requested a Spiderman cake. Man, those webs are deceptively tricky. In the end, though, Davy said it looked just like Spiderman and so mission accomplished.
I don't know what Davy wished for as he blew the candles on his cake (probably a Lego set with handcuffs. He's been obsessed with a friend's police set that has handcuffs.) but my wish was that he go into this next year with the same enthusiasm and determination that he has his whole life so far.
What is it about kids that have this hunger to grow up and become more? Our spirits come seriously driven. Our souls must be more energetic and whole and powerful than we can fathom.
You know, I was talking with my sister today about how I sometimes tell my kids to just stop growing up. Just stay right where you are and never get any older. And I do mean that in all seriousness. We could just freeze frame right here and I would be pleased as punch--for a while.
But growth and stretching and failing and triumphing are way too thrilling to put a pause on life.
And yet, as much as I love where we've been and where we are headed, I'm learning to love this moment. This very moment in the present now.
So how do I reconcile the fact that I don't actually often really truly want Davy to go back to being a baby Davy or a toddler Davy. I love his layers and facets. All the experiences that he has gone through to become who he is now are too important to want to go back. He is richer, deeper, broader and more whole every day he does wake up. Older, yes. More stubborn (or at least more able to express the stubborn and getting too big to pick up and carry and boss around)--every morning. Stronger in all the great Davy qualities, definitely.
Rewind time? No thanks. Bottle up a few precious moments from baby and toddler and little kid-hood? That would be awesome.
So I guess this is just part of parenting and the process of growing up, to figure out how to weave the past, present, and future into one good lifetime.
I think I can get used to the fact that he loves stories and pictures and memories of him as a baby and little kid, because I love those as well. And ultimately, five-year-old Davy Lambourne is the perfect place for all of us--for now.